It's Not Always As Beautiful As It Looks

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Well, hello there again!

So.. I've completely disappeared from sharing anything with you for some time now. A whole lot has happened in the mean time and it's not that I actually have stopped creating. I've actually kept on creating, writing, making videos, taking pictures, and the whole shebang (yes, that's a real word - I checked).

I did stop sharing though and here's why:

1. I travelled home to spend time with family and friends. A trip, which despite how wonderful it may have looked on my Instagram, was challenging.

As much as I am grateful to have the life that I do, it's very far from perfect. I choose to share the beautiful and good things but let me tell you, it's not always like that. And especially when I go home, I am pushed to deal with things. These things include someone close to me who has severe alcoholism, another who had ended up in jail during my time there, and a few other challenging circumstances. That feels strange even typing that out as if it would be a fake script but unfortunately it's not. And while I much prefer to share the happy things, this was my reality and this is my truth. 

2. I received a heap of negative criticism on the videos I created on this blog from someone very close to me.

For a period of time, I honestly wasn't sure how to deal with that so what I did was just not publish anything at all. Then I would be safe, right? Oh, how wrong I was. 

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I will be publishing about my learnings from these experiences and how I overcame them in future posts. If you have a question about something specific, please do let me know in the comments below. But in the meantime, I just wanted to write and let out what has been going on. I have had people telling me how they wish they had my life and how it looks so perfect.

Nothing is absolutely perfect though. We all have challenges that we face, at some times easier than others. But it's how we deal with those and move forward that makes us who we are. And I just happen to enjoy sharing all that with the world - the good, the bad, the beautiful, the ugly, & most importantly, the truth. I still choose to share the pretty pictures though because this is how I want to remember things even when they weren't so easy. So, if anything, the point I'm trying to make is that even when someone seems to have it all, it doesn't mean that and honestly, no one has it all figured out. We are all just figuring it out and doing the best we can along the way. 

With love,
♥ JJ