Living abroad has really been a dream come true for me. But although it may look easy through the fun instagram photos, I'm still dealing with overcoming fears on a daily basis.
One of my biggest fears is that something would happen to someone and since I'm away, I wouldn't be able to be there for them. Unfortunately this came true. So here is a little rundown of all that's been happening and how I ended up taking an unexpected trip home to Chicago.
About two months ago, I admitted to my boss that I wasn't happy in what I was doing. All the benefits anyone could want were there yet still I realized it wasn't for me. I am and have always been a firm believer that continuing to do something that doesn't make you happy is just not the way life is meant to be lived. Luckily, this boss was extremely understanding and still gave me a full-time contract (I had been on a 6-month contract prior). I then started searching for my next steps with him knowing I would be eventually leaving sometime soon. Just another instance that honesty always wins.
An incident happened to someone very close to me. Thankfully, everything is ok now but in that moment, I knew I had to get on a plane home as soon as possible to be with my family. So, I quit my job & booked a ticket home. It hit me on the flight that the last time I was home was almost 2 years ago.
I've now been spending a lot of time with family and friends, which is an extremely good feeling after not being home for so long. Also, I'm working on figuring out my next steps in life. As corny as it may sound, I really do believe that everything happens for a reason. It may have been a bad incident that pushed me to leave my job and come home quickly but with the bad comes along some good. Exciting things are in the horizon but still I'm honestly not sure yet what I will choose to do in the end. This whole process can be uncomfortable but it's also exhilarating and fun. I'm simply embracing the uncertainty and following what me makes happy. We shall see where in the world that leads to!
P.S. I do still have a return ticket to Belgium. ;)